Today I begin to repair the damage done by having tried to connect with another person. I was asked by someone if I’d begun to meditate again but in fact I plan to start by exercising physically. Nothing too difficult, just some gradual exercise-bike use until I’ve got the focus back on me. Then after I am grounded in that form, perhaps I will start sitting again, but honestly I’ve never had much patience for meditation. I need to feel good about myself again, and that begins today by showing myself that I care about myself, and am dedicating to continuing on on the side of good. I am of course buoyed by those far flung friends and comrads who have called or sent me messages of support; I am so thankful for the support, it has helped balance me in this time of uncertainty – a time when I am painted by some as bad and regarded by those who know me as someone who is good. Keep trying, they say. Although it is true we often create problems we also create possibilities – they’re often indistinguishable from each other. I will keep trying.