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Onward, world

Posted in Personal by Will on Tuesday, March 23rd, 2010 ~ 2pm

I am now 90% sure I am only a customer to the teller, based on no new content in our friendly counter talk (if there was interest, she’d have added a new subject).*

And yet, I am not sad, in fact I felt rather energized and had a bagel at the coffee shop and laughed with a counter worker there about Year One… I guess simply because I’d faced up to the possibility of interest. (I.e., I didn’t avoid going to the bank today to avoid finding out if the chat was just chat. I deposit checks each day for my company).

That act was enough to engage my enthusiasm, which, to paraphrase Douglas Adams, was something I’d become concerned I may have lost.

I’d seriously felt like I couldn’t remember when last I’d been truly optimistic or capable of getting enthused.

*Still holding out hope she just acted pleasant and nothing beyond that due to coworker proximity… I’d love to find out I was foolishly assuming no interest. But as I have no social connection to her, there’s no way for me to mine for info. I don’t even know her name.

So, onward, world.

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  1. Elizabeth said,

    on May 21st, 2010 at 12:19 am

    I’m thinking Kafka, or Tolstoy… or one of those writers who tried to tell everyone else that we were getting too far away from actual “human” encounters with each other because we were becoming mere cogs in the “machine.”

    Now we just assume that we are all cogs in the machine and nothing means anything beyond that. A smile is a cog smile. A laugh is a cog laugh. Our entire beings are subjugated to the needs of the machine, and it would be wrong of anyone to assume any interaction means any more than that.

  2. Will said,

    on May 21st, 2010 at 10:31 am

    True and profound!

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